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New location for the blog |
[12/29/03 | 11:40 am] |
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New place for blog to live:
http://greghughes.net/rant
RSS feeds should be updated to: http://www.greghughes.net/rant/SyndicationService.asmx/GetRss
Like anyone is subscribing, heheheh...
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Ultimate RSS reader client |
[12/18/03 | 12:14 am] |
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If you've been in the web world for any length of time, you have to know who Nick Bradbury is. He's one of the gods of usable and useful software design.
I've been running a in-development new product of his, called FeedDemon, for some time now, and I have to tell you , it's awesome. It's a RSS reader and it does it so well, I have dumped every other RSS reader out there. It's not even for sale yet and I already bought a copy. :)
The official version will be available soon, but for now, take a look at Nick's FeedDemon product site and you can grab the pre-release copy and see what I mean.
RSS is the way of the future, people. Get on board now before everyone else does, and before it gets renamed to something goofy. If you are one of those who wishes you could (honestly) say you were doing work on ARPANET, but can't - here's you chance to get in early enough to say you found it before everyone knew about it.
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Fun fun fun??? |
[12/17/03 | 09:23 pm] |
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Man-o-Man, been a while since I posted. I got lazy, or busy, or tired, or something. Probably all of the above. Anyhow, here comes Christmas and I am way behind, things are crazy everywhere I turn and I think the only good decision I have made recently was to hire a cleaning lady to come in and clean my house for me every few weeks. Seem like if I am home, I am worn out, so this was a good decision. Besides, I suck at cleaning for the most part. Not that I can't do it - I just don't really enjoy it. :)
But anyway, lots of technology stuff going on these days. That anti-spam bill I blogged about eons ago just got signed into law. That should (still) be interesting. Where I work we have rolled out the Office 2003 system now, and it's sometimes frustrating, other times rewarding to be putting all this work into this project. I can honestly say I will be glad when we can say we are done. At least the end is in sight!
So, I have been thinking that I should just up and leave for some random period of time and go some random place I have never been just to get a brain break. I have been thinking about Alaska, but the time required to do that is kind of daunting. I have been to New Your City a few times before, but it's been awhile, and the last time I was there I was at the World Trade Center, so things have definitely changed and I would like to go back possibly. Or, hey, there's always Vegas or Reno, right??? ;)
Oh. You gotta check this out. Right when you think you've seen it all, here comes a couple things that make you stop, roll your eyes, and exclaim, "WTF???" I'm not going to explain the first one. It's freakin hilarious though. And then we have the Washington State Patrol's new campaign. If it wasn't for the fact that it's for REAL, I'd stop shaking my head and start laughing...
I'll try to post here a little more often. Try. Operative word. :)
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It's about time? |
[10/25/03 | 03:29 pm] |
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"Finally," I think to myself, "a possible move in the right direction in the War Against Spam." A California court has fined a couple US$2,000,000 for civil violations of the state's anti-spamming law. In addition, ten years of injunctions against the people and their company should keep at least one spam house out of our hair. California is posed to unleash a new anti-spam law on the first of the year, which "prohibits unsolicited e-mail advertisements sent to or from any California e-mail address, unless the recipient gives prior permission (under current law the recipient has to opt out), or has an existing business relationship with the sender. It also permits private individuals to sue spammers and collect actual damages, plus $1,000 per e-mail and up to $1 million per incident."
I'm tempted to say, "It's about time." On second thought, it makes me wonder if we might be trying to solve a technology problem by enacting new laws.
Spam sucks, and it costs money - real money. Anyone who pays for internet services is subsidizing the volumes of spam emails that are transported over the backbone every second. While California claims 40%, most agree that fully 75% of all email that traverses the Internet is spam - Pure, unadulterated junk marketing mail. Do you know anyone who likes spam email? I know I don't, and while I am not a big fan of legislating change, this is one area I have to think about. It might be one area where I can support some kind of restriction.
But what's the best route to take in solving the spam problem? Is this really a problem that's best resolved by passing laws prohibiting mass emailing? Or is this situation an indicator of a technology that needs to improve? It mean, email is inherently open and pretty insecure. I, for one, am a big advocate of keeping the Internet free from legislation and legal action whenever possible. That said, is it time to take a look at email technology and maybe find a better way to communicate, or is it time to place legal restrictions on how and when it's done? My fear is that these new laws will kill email as we know it, and that the protections we put in place today will eventually make this useful (albeit fairly insecure) tool a thing of the past.
There are already arguments about California's new law, and it's questionable as to whether or not it goes too far. In fact, chances are it will be fought out in the courts there before too long. I don't buy the first-amendment-violation argument myself, but I would not be surprised to see some pretty heated legal battles.
And now the U.S. Senate comes along with an anti-spam bill, with probably more problems than the California version. And it would render any state anti-spam law defunct. Great, you gotta love that. It includes penalties of up to (get this) five years in jail, and a possible do-not-spam list controlled by the FTC, and "companies sending e-mail would have to provide their lists to the FTC so they could be checked and the coverage would be far broader than the FTC's telemarketer 'do not call' list, which only covers sales calls to consumers. The spam-blocking list would also cover business-to-business e-mails and companies could put their entire domain on the registry."
We're all looking at this problem from the same perspective: We hate spam, and want to do something about it. The question now is, what and how?
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Chris Sells is freakin funny... |
[10/19/03 | 10:40 pm] |
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I have always enjoyed reading Chris Sells' site, mostly because he has lots of cool info on it and he's a friggin genius, but also because he's got a great sense of humor.
And every time I go to his site and start poking around in there, I find something really cool. He made mention of someone who took his bare-bones IM code and ran with it, which sounded cool to me, so I went to check it out. Hey, I thought, pretty nifty stuff. Download code, try it tout. But wait - I looked over in the navigation list of projects, and was (pleasantly) surprised to see something that jumped right off the page at me: SharePoint Syndication. Dude, perfect! Creates RSS feeds from SharePoint lists - syndication for the corporate masses. :)
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Freakin' Funny ... |
[10/18/03 | 08:34 pm] |
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The South Park movie has to be one of the funniest damn things I've ever seen. I saw it when it first came out, and I still laugh when I watch it now. What the hell is it about South Park that makes it so damn funny?
A little late on the review here, and not much detail, but: I saw Kill Bill Volume One last weekend. OMG - Talk about bizarre. Violent, for sure - I don't think I have ever seen a movie more violent. But it's a sort of slapstick-sarcastic-unreal-yet-real violence. It's hard to explain. Heads and arms are graphically chopped off throughout the movie, in front of little girls and whatnot, but the *way* it happens is so unrealistic. It's sick, yet it was pretty darn good. QUENTIN TARANTINO is a freak, that's for sure, but he's a talented freak. Heck, Roger Ebert called it "brilliant." Wow. What the hell is happening to this world? :)
I want one of these. And this looks really cool, too.
I'll be traveling over the next few weeks a few times to speak at these big events. Kind of looking forward to it, kind of not too excited, kind of nervous. But I think once it gets started I will enjoy it.
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Ain't that the truth |
[10/18/03 | 03:23 pm] |
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News.com has a little article on their site commenting about Microsoft's new once-a-month patch plan. Basically, the third Wednesday of the month is patch day (critical patches don't get held onto, but others do). Amusing, but really - if a company actually relies on just one guy to do all the patching, he's never going on vacation anyhow.[ Current Mood :  awake ]
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More something new |
[10/11/03 | 01:06 am] |
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Well, I think I like it. I started doing something new this week, and it's been a fun and interesting process for me. Exercises the mind and I'm refreshing old skills. I have started writing for the Lockergnome Tech Specialist newsletter, which goes out to like 140,000 people or something like that several times a week. I started on Monday and have had something to say each day - I hope I can keep up the thought process and not get a brain block too early in the process. :)[ Current Mood :  artistic ]
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Something old, something new... |
[10/5/03 | 09:36 pm] |
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Without going into any real detail quite yet, I decided to agree to try helping with a very cool project that I first started watching back around 1996 when it was brand new. People who know me will tell you I'm one for the gab (that's my wordy way of saying I talk a lot), so this should be an interesting adventure, since it will take advantage of that talent/curse. It's kinda exciting, and I'll be interested to see how it goes. It's something I'd be proud to be a part of if it works out, and it promises to be fun, too.
Funny how old stuff - things from years ago - can swing back around and catch up with you when you least expect it. For example, recently I've been chatting quite a bit with an old friend from where I used to live in New Mexico, which has been a lot of fun. Life has changed quite a bit since then, but it's good to know that for the most part, people have not. Well, some have - drastically. But it is good to see a few truly quality people who have remained positive and good to others.
It's nice to have things from the past be positive when they come back around. I know people who feel like they have to hide from their pasts. That's no fun. I'm grateful I don't have to do that.[ Current Mood :  excited ]
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Make it Stop! |
[10/5/03 | 11:05 am] |
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I’ve found over the past couple of years that more and more people from random places and through random contacts call on me to help them determine what they can do to solve some kind of IT problem. Case in point: Junk email. Spam. UCE. Whatever you want to call it, I don’t care – It sucks.
I always knew spam was a problem for me personally, and that it affected others around me. What I never fully realized is just how big an impact it had. I used to have to wade through hundreds of real, legitimate emails sent to me each day, combined with another 150-plus spam emails. That’s per day. It made for a stressful process of information management and communicating at work. As the days and months went by, the mess got bigger. And as many IT and HR managers know, some of the more colorful email that comes in through company email servers is more than just annoying. About a year ago, I was presenting a new web-based interface to our email system to all of our company’s employees. So, I fire it up, open my email there on the big screen in front of the whole company, and sure enough, there on the screen: “Mega Porn Superstore!” Thank goodness it didn’t have pictures. That would have been bad. I mean worse.
Like it or not, it can be a real liability in this day and age for companies that know there’s a problem with certain kinds of junk email if they don’t do anything to make it stop for their employees. Professional spammers have so many means by which they acquire and create email addresses for their mailing lists, it’s almost impossible these days to actually use your email address and not receive junk mail.
So, being the “IT-visionary” that I am (read: the guy who people expect to magically solve all their problems), and since I obviously stood to benefit personally, I of course assigned one of my already-overworked IT crew to do yet more work, searching with me for the killer anti-spam solution for our business. There are a whole slew of options out there, and a number of them are worth looking at. It’s worth noting that I was very picky about what I wanted, and the resulting set of requirements for a solution was equally demanding: Stop all spam. Don’t block any email that’s not spam. Give me company-wide administrative control over what the anti-spam system does, but at the same time give end users the same level of control over their individual mail accounts. Oh, and it had to be a server solution – no client side software allowed. The last thing we needed/wanted was yet another software program we couldn’t manage easily. The solution needed to actually solve the problem, in other words. Clean up the junk mail, and don’t make more work for the IT support people.
Now, if you take a good look at what’s available out there and then apply our business requirements, you end up with a list that’s substantially shorter than when you started. After all, there are tons of client-side products of varying quality and reliability that claim to stop spam email, and there are also a number of server-based options that provide centralized spam control. But we found that many of them just don’t do a very good job. In the process of researching options, we found several products that claim “better than 75% spam reduction,” and not surprisingly they manage to deliver on that figure. But that was not close to good enough for us. We needed closer to 99% reduction, and we needed the same level or better of accuracy, it had to be easy to use, manageable and personalized for individual employees. What we needed to find was a company that placed the same performance and feature demands on it’s solution as we did
Believe it or not, we actually found what we were looking for. From the back alleys of the anti-spam software world comes MailFrontier’s Anti-Spam Gateway. The company also produces software that runs on the desktop and integrates with your mail program. But their server-based solution, which acts as a high-capacity SMTP email gateway and spam catcher, simply rules. Since putting this product in place, we have achieved nearly 100% accuracy on junk email blocking, and for the email that counts the most – mail from our customers and partners, for example – we can guarantee truly 100% delivery. And I mean blocking – unless an end user wants to see the junk mail, the ASG server prevents it from ever showing up, and can send a report as often as the user likes listing the email that has been blocked. All this from one product, centrally managed, and at a very reasonable cost. Our employees are ecstatic about the results, and they are some pretty demanding people, let me tell you. Hey, not bad.
For my part, I can say that my stress level has definitely dropped with regard to email issues. Stress level? What? Let me explain. I get a lot of email, and so do others. And a lot of it is unsolicited junk mail. Over the past couple of months, 298,915 Internet emails have arrived at our company’s mail server. All of these emails are now checked first by our anti-spam gateway server. Of those emails, 237,176 were junk. That’s nearly 80% of the total inbound email! And sure enough, studies show that more than 75% of the email on the internet is spam.
So, that’s all well and good for big companies like ours, but for those who don’t run their own mail server, it doesn’t help much. Many companies have their own domain names, but someone else actually runs their email system for them. It’s just more cost effective, or it’s simply easier that way. For those of you who fit into that category, you might take a look at SpamSoap. I recommended them to a friend recently, and he’s been very happy, achieving some pretty terrific results: “It actually worked so well in the first few hours that I thought my mail was broken,” he said. “Then, a legitimate email showed up. Boom. Very nice.”
For those of you who have no option but to use a client-based spam killer, there are so many options it’s scary. Working similarly to the server-based solution we found, MailFrontier Matador is an option worth trying. It’s not free, but it’s relatively inexpensive and they have a trial version so you can check it out before you buy. You might also look at Outlook 2003 when it hits the street, as it does a somewhat decent job of junk mail filtering (better than Outlook XP did, anyhow). And there’s tons of other options available that are way too numerous to list here, so here’s a link to get you started.[ Current Mood : energetic ]
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When it rains ... |
[10/4/03 | 09:43 am] |
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Well its been while since I last updated. It figures that the times when you're busiest are the times you have the most to write, but because you're so damn busy, you don't have time to write... Lots of Microsoft related stuff to share, plus some other things.
So, here I am on Saturday morning, still at work, got about an hour or maybe a little more of sleep on a couch in someone's office. It's been along time since I've pulled one of these all-nighters, and I won't be doing so on purpose again any time soon. We did a (resoundingly) successful upgrade of our Windows 2000 domain controllers here to Windows Server 2003 last night. It was great and went much faster and smoother than we thought. Unfortunalely, though, there's always one thing that doesn't quite work as you'd hope, and this time was no exception. Perhaps a bit surprisingly to some, the problem had absolutely nothing to do with Windows 2003, but instead with a third-party vendor's hardware and software, and a truly crappy support technician who works for that th-rd-party vendor on the other end of the line. End result? Three people with little to no sleep and that always-wonderful post-adreneline crash. :) But hey - it's all good now (very good), and that's what counts.
I will be participating in the keynote address as a speaker at four of the Microsoft Office 2003 System launch events later this month and in early November. I will be on the stage in Portland, Boise, Spokane and Albuquerque along with the keynote speakers, talking about our company's early adoption and deployment of Office 2003, SharePoint Portal Server, SharePoint Team Services, Live Communication Server, Exchange 2003, and other various and sundry things. It should be a lot of fun and it looks to be a worthwhile event for anyone who has an interest. Sign up soon though, it's getting tight in some venues. I know Seattle has gone to waiting-list only and Portland is getting close to capacity.
I have a new program on my "Way Cool" list: Microsoft OneNote. Wow, who'da thunk such a simple concept could work this well and be this useful? If you are someone who carries a notebook around and takes notes a lot, or if you're like me and you hate actually getting organized, but still wish you had a place to store stuff and organize it so you can refer to it later, you have to check this out. Plus it integrates with the Office System stuff I mentioned above. I love this thing. Oh yeah - if you happen to have a tablet PC, all the more reason to check this out. Ink baby! But it's great on any computer, for sure.
I'm thinking I will need to seriously check out Windows Media Center 2004, which was recently launched. I am planning to get a projector for my home to replace my big screen TV, which is nearly 7 years old now (still a great TV but hey, it's time). I have this huge room where I can project a 10-foot picture and set up the surround system. Looking at this nifty version of Windows, I am thinking seriously that it might be worth trying. Support for hi-def and combining DVR and many other capabilities is definitiely way cool.
You may or may not know about one of my favorite daily arrivals in my email inbox: the Lockergnome newsletters. Chris Pirillo started these things up several years ago. Back when he was first starting out he and I used to email ideas back and forth now and then. He's a driven guy, and has done some amazing things with his franchise. Over time, Lockergnome added more newletters, and now has several to choose from. My personal favorites are the tech Specialist and Windows Daily, but there are others for Linux fans and other areas of interest. The other day Chris announced that the primary author of the Tech Specialist newsletter is moving on to other things. I hope it will continue to thrive - it's a great source of information and ideas.
That's it for now, plenty more to write about, but I will save it for later.
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Classic Microsoft |
[9/15/03 | 08:32 pm] |
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In perfect style, Microsoft released their Office Online web site, intended in part to let you learn more about Office 2003, which is about to be released.
So, I saw a section on the front page called "In the Spotlight: Infopath" and a link called "Designing Forms." "Cool," I thought - "I can learn something useful." So I click the link... and I get:Buy Office 2003
You have arrived at this page because you selected an item that is available only if you have a Microsoft Office 2003 Edition product installed. Any Office user can still access most of the content on Microsoft Office Online, including content that you are used to working with on our former site, Microsoft Office Tools on the Web. But to view some of the new content on Office Online, you must have an Office 2003 Edition product installed on your computer.
To read and work with this premium new content - including all training courses and some templates, clip art, and more - you just need to upgrade to an Office 2003 edition product. All of the premium content is indicated by the  symbol. Of course, that symbol wasn't there, and while I do have Office 2003 installed at work all over the place, I don't yet have it at home. To learn about Office 2003 and decide if I want to use it, one has to first install Office 2003.... Hmmm...
I don't know what I was expecting.
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Speaking of Googling |
[9/15/03 | 08:17 pm] |
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Speaking of Google, which is of course the best thing on the Internet since sliced bread, check out this Google search page. Cool huh?[ Current Mood : amused ]
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People from the past |
[9/13/03 | 07:16 pm] |
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I figured I would start some useful Googling today and see if I could find any sign of any of the foster kids that lived with me over the years, just to see what they may be up to these days. I've been curious and had some extra time this afternoon, so I figured I'd give it a shot. Oh and by the way if you have not yet seen googlism, check it out.
Sure enough, the one kid I thought I might find (well, not a kid anymore...) was notably mentioned many times in newspapers and athletic department results for his rodeo championships. Wow. This was a kid who, with his brother, was literally left at someone's house by a parent with a promise to pick them up that evening, and then no-show. Two weeks later they came to live with me for quite a while, til suddenly the other parent was found in a different state and was able to take them in. Now there he is, successful, in college, and apparently still a never-give-up kind of guy: He broke his neck/back on a bareback ride and kept competing in the state finals, then on to college. Newspapers wrote about it. Yep, that's him, and I am sure he did it all with a smile on his face. Literally. Just the kind of person he is.
It's good to see one of those kids following his dreams, being successful. I hope he kept playing baseball, too. But horses - that was the thing. Good for him. :)
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News.com changes - sort of |
[9/13/03 | 05:06 pm] |
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News.com has made some changes to the way they are doing things to go along with their "birthday."
Of interest: "... The one big feature we are debuting is "Get Up to Speed," which helps you, well, get up to speed on--and make sense of--the six technologies and trends we believe are getting the most notice in the tech world: Enterprise Security, Open Source, Utility Computing, Voice over IP, Web Services and Wi-Fi ..."
Well, at least on the web services and security subjects, they'll have my attention for at least a while longer. Cool.
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Vacation vs. Travel |
[9/13/03 | 01:49 pm] |
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So I have been thinking about what I should do during my vacation time that I need to take between now and the end of the year (the ol' use-it-or-lose-it thing), and I keep thinking back to what seems to happen every time I take a vacation: I invariably get really tired after a couple of day, sleep way more than usual for a few days more, and then have maybe a day or two feeling like I might actually be able to get to a point where I could feel clear-headed and rejuvenated, if only I could start my vacation the next day.
And if you add any kind of travel to the mix, it just extends the initial critical recovery time.
Which leads me to realize that in order to have a worthwhile vacation, I need to schedule it like this:a) Four days off work, but not yet going anywhere. This will allow me to catch up on laundry, think of what I need to go wherever I am going (remember, my brain is not working well at this point), actually find the things I need, pack, and clean the house so it's at least presentable when I get back (nothing quite as bad as coming back from vacation to a mess stress). Plus one day at work to deal with whatever they forgot to throw at me and which has now become an emergency.[elapsed = 5 days]
b) One extra day to rest before I have to go anywhere. Those first five days nearly killed me. [elapsed = 6 days]
c) One more day to do all the last-minute things I forgot about in the first four days but remember now because of the time I took on day five. [elapsed = 7 days] (there goes 40 hours...)
d) One day to travel to wherever I am going. [elapsed = 8 days]
e) Three days to mostly sleep and do some vacation-like things but without enough energy, and I won't remember them very clearly anyhow, so this should be the time for all those shops and crap that people seem to like. [elapsed = 11 days]
f) Now vacation starts. Seven days to see the sites, relax and have some fun [elapsed = 18 days] (Uh oh we hit 80 hours of vacation in there somewhere)
g) One day to travel back home. Invariably at this point I come down with a sore throat and sinus infection. [elapsed = 19 days]
h) Sleep for 24 hours [elapsed = 20 days]
i) I now require one week to unplug the phone, turn off the computer, and do nothing but home projects. This is what finally clears my mind and makes me ready to go back. [elapsed = 27 days] So, looks like 4 weeks should do it. I'll need the extra day to find my office anyhow, if I am gone that long. Of course, that's 4 weeks in a row. And 160 hours of vacation time (which, conveniently, is slightly more than I have to burn between now and the end of the year).
Hey, no problem, right? I am sure my projects will just lead themselves and everything will magically work out in the end.
Later, I'll explore the possibilities of spreading that time out, and look at the implications of that plan.
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Make me sick |
[9/10/03 | 11:35 pm] |
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Damn, throat's sore and sinuses are shot. Not good. Oh well.
Got a new web cam - it's kinda cool. Image quality is so-so but its one of those small laptop ones, so can't expect too much.
Time for bed, /me thinks.
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Gotta love it... |
[9/9/03 | 07:35 pm] |
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So, I get a call from someone at work late in the afternoon, turns out they need me to work all night. For real. This is starting to turn into an Office-Space moment, I think... "Uh, yeaahhhh... so, we're gonna need you to work this weekend... uh, yeah...."
Ugh.
It's an important thing they need me for, but man oh man, I am so ready to say "I told ya so" on this one. Could have been prevented. But since everyone is big time stressed and it would do no good to say that, I am keeping my mouth shut. In this particular case it's better that way.
I woke up this morning feeling pretty good, and by 10:00 this morning I was wiped out. It's been a really long week, and it's only Tuesday. Wow. Not sure I wqill make it through the end of the week at this rate. especially since today and tomorrow are realy one big work day.
I gave a presentation today at work. It sucked. Definitely not my day. It's so extremely unusual for me to have a bad day presenting - and everyone walked out of there confused. Not good. Now I will have to go back and recommunicate all this information, which takes up even more of their time and mine. Ugh again.
Oh well. Tomorrow may be better.
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Glasses |
[9/9/03 | 12:28 pm] |
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Of course, I forgot them. Even after typing myself a reminder. Sheez...
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Rain Rain Rain! |
[9/9/03 | 07:00 am] |
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I'm finding very quickly that I sleep much better when it's raining outside. Must be the background noise or something. I only woke up once last night, and I actually feel fairly well rested right now, which is a nice change. I might even remember my glasses when I walk out the door today.
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Write once, change mind, write again ... |
[9/8/03 | 09:30 pm] |
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So I wrote a long entry and decided it was too much to make public. Hmmm... Well, I guess that’s just the way it goes. :)
I got to thinking about heroes today. Someone recently told me that I am their hero (or one of them or something like that), and that got me thinking. First of all, me - anyone's hero? Come on, that's like, well, wrong. Or something. How can I be someone's hero? I'm not exactly the poster child of how to live a life.
So then I started thinking about who my heroes in life have been. Not the astronauts or movie stars or musicians that no one ever meets. I mean more like people who I knew that were really heroes to me. I realize its a pretty short list. There's Jack Gehre, my high school geometry teacher, who not only made math fun but who also took me in as a foster kid for a while when I was at my lowest. My best friend's parents for the same reason. My mom, for making it through the crap she went through and for making a better life for herself despite the odds. My fifth grade teacher, because she had a really cool dog and because she really, really cared.
And then there's my eighth grade English teacher, who everyone thought was a senile old lady. I remember Ray Pacheco threw a big spit wad the size of a baseball that splattered on the blackboard like a foot from her head while she was writing an assignment, and barely glanced at it and just kept right on talking and writing while that thing oozed down the board. When I went back to visit her before I graduated from high school. she told me all the stories that we thought she never noticed in the first place, let alone remembered. And man, she was far from senile. She was smarter than any of us.
My 9th grade English teacher - He was tough and cared a lot, and man could he teach like it mattered. And Mr. Cotter, my 8th and 9th grade science teacher, who made fun of me (in a nice enough way) every day in the hallway and let me make fun of him right back, always with a big grin on his face. He was so funny and always watched out for the kids who needed it. He died a few years ago of a heart attack. I wish I could tell him thank you. But from that smile I think he knew. You could tell it, he knew.
I dropped by the Gehre's house, my one-time foster home for a short while, once a couple of years ago when I was back in my home town, because I wanted to see them and especially to tell them thank you. No one was home. Weird thing is, for some reason, I was uncomfortable going there. Why is that? Why was it so strange for me to go back and tell them thank you? I felt kind of like maybe my going back would be an inconvenience to them, I think. Why have I not tried since? I hope I haven't missed my chance, like I did with Mr. Cotter.
Heroes are important. I bet those people don't know they are my heroes. I bet they'd be surprised. Maybe even a little uncomfortable with it. Maybe I can learn something from that, too.
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When sleeping dogs fart... |
[9/7/03 | 05:59 pm] |
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I'm sitting here chatting on MSN messenger (hey, they have really improved that program...) with an old friend that I had not talked to in awhile, and my friggin dog FARTS. And it's a NASTY one... Now, there's two things about this that really stand out to me:
First of all, the last time this old friend and I chattend on MSN-IM, the dog was farting up a stinky storm, too. And I mean STINK. Tim (the old friend on chat) pointed that out to me. Funny what people remember about the last time you communicated with them, isn't it? :)
Greg H says: MAN
Greg H says: my dog farted
Greg H says: AHHHHHHHHHHH
Figgy* says: Again??
Figgy* says: lol
Figgy* says: I remember you complaining about that last time we talked
Greg H says: HOLY CRAP
Greg H says: <COUGH COUIGH>
Figgy* says: Keep an oxygen tank near the computer
Greg H says: heh
Greg H says: yeah
Figgy* says: then get all "high" off of it too
Greg H says: high off oxygen
Greg H says: LOL
Figgy* says: lol
Greg H says: yeahhhhh
Figgy* says: Yeah, pure oxygen is messy
Figgy* says: Ok, time to read your journal
Greg H says: ok - I am writing about dog farts now LOL
Figgy* says: lol
Okay, so the second thing is that my dog is plotting against me. He knows well and good exactly what he is doing. How, you ask, can I tell? Simple: Every time this dog farts, he's lying there on the floor, or on the bed, or whatever... He lets one loose, immediately gets up and moves away or out of the room with that look on his face. You know - the one that says "please don’t kill me."
Here's what I want to know: If he KNOWS it's going to make me unhappy (because these are not your average run-of-the-mill farts), why can't he get up and move BEFORE he lets one loose? Leave the room and go fart somewhere else???
There's only one answer: It's on purpose. No doubt.
aufwiedersehen...
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How do I get involved in all this stuff???? |
[9/7/03 | 05:08 pm] |
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While we're on the topic of over-committing, man... How the hell do I get caught up in so many things that pull me in so many different directions? I mean, it seems like I am always searching for something else to get involved with, and then I end up with too many things going on and driving myself crazy trying to fulfill all I have promised. Argh. All of these things are important to me on one level or another (or on several in same cases), but sheez, I sure can beat the crap out of myself without realizing it sometimes. No, all the time, I think.
So, what's my list of commitments, you might wonder? (like anyone is reading this LOL...)
My over-commitment falls into certain categories, I think.
First there's work. It goes without saying that on a fairly regular basis I end up working on long term projects that either I dreamed up or I was involved in dreaming up, and then going insane over them. By insane I mean, like - really insane. As in waking up a 3am nearly every night (multiple times many nights) with random pain in the ass thoughts RACING through my mind about details of the huge project I am responsible for. I don't like wake up and then start thinking about these things. It's more like I wake up and as I become awake I am ALREADY thinking about them. AAAAHHHH!!!! There are times when I think I am just NUTS.
Next there's church. Now, I will be the first to say I am far from a perfect Christian. Truth be told, while I do believe in God, religion is not too often something I get a huge kick out of. That said, I do belong to a church that I like, and that I get a lot of personal spiritual benefit from, and I work with the church leadership there as well as with the youth group. This is one place where I tend to get a little frustrated with the fact that I end up with too much on my shoulders, at least in terms of the youth group responsibilities. Probably the reason its frustrating is because in this particular case, some one else is supposed to be helping to shoulder the load, but it fails to happen on a pretty regular basis. But that's a whole different story and rant...
Okay, so the next on the list is home. I have managed to start a number of projects at my new house (bought it a year ago), and to get anywhere from 60% to 90% done, but Not Quite Finish. What, you ask, am I referring to? Well... First there's the bonus room upstairs. It was unfinished, and now it has the walls and ceiling painted and textured, and track lighting half installed but working, and almost 400 square feet of laminate floor installed. All but the last friggin row, which I have not put in since it requires I cut a lot, and I have not brought myself to doing that. It's been, oh, three or four months since I touched it. Man, I am lame. Second is the window shutters. I bought them last fall and finally painted them to match the trim color about 5 months ago, and since then I have installed them on six of the eleven windows. And I recently decided that the shutters on four of the windows are too short so I need to replace them. Only every time I get to the store where I can buy them I don't have the measurements with me. ARGH! Then there's the yard. I have now rototilled the dirt area that will eventually be the back yard twice, and there's 10 bales of peat moss out back that have been sitting there for around 3 or 4 months. I really should bust those open and spread the peat moss out and rake it in... I mean, I have the grass seed in the garage, got that before the peat moss... SHEEZ!!!
Enough of that. Point is, I am overcommitted sometimes (okay, all the time), and other times I guess I am just too tired, or at times maybe too depressed, to find the motivation to do things. Or at least to finish them. I'll have to think about that, and what I can do to change things.
owtaheer.
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Getting started - and life's not always as easy as it looks |
[9/7/03 | 02:23 pm] |
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So, trying something new here, see where this goes, and hope its not *too* random. Heh.
So I found this livejournal thing and was able to figure it out, which is good considering I'm much less of a techno-geek and much more of an administrator these days, so it's cool to be able to do something still without asking for help like a friggin dork. :)
Things aren't always as simple and easy as they should be... So, there's this friend who I really need to talk to about some things that he's - well - dropped the ball on. Unfotunately it means that a lot of other people are getting the short end of the deal as a result, I seem to be the only one who hears the complaints, and it's been one of those getting-worse-over-time things. I think that if you make a commitment to something, you should keep it, short of a major life event that turns everything upside down. In this case, there are some pretty important people (important like they matter a lot, not like they're big shots or anything - they really do matter) counting on us, and I am starting to feel like I am left holding all the responsibiliy a lot of the time. That ends up with me both hella pissed off at times and - in the eyes of the others - not good enough. Which sucks.
Blah. Whatever... I'll figure it out. Time to have a sit-down, no-bullshit, face-to-face talk. Or more like I'll talk. He'll have to listen and then make some decisions about priorities and commitments. There comes a point when its no longer about apologies, it's about action. It's about what you do. Or don't do. It's all measured in the results, when it comes right down to it.
Anyhoooo.... Enough of that. So, this livejournal thing is cool. I bet a lot of people write crap like that in their first posts huh? "This is cool man." =) I've looked around at some journals of others from the same area I am in (Portland) and found out the livejournal company (or group of people that do this anyhow) is also in Portland. Cool. Looks like some bright people.
It finally rained today. It's been so long since rain fell here I was starting to get depressed from all the sun. ;) Only so much of that we can take here in the northwest, ya know.
Out.
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